Hi there! Long story, I'll try to make it as short as possible. About 2 1/2 years ago I was having a terrible time sleeping, I was in perimenopause but was on Bio identical HRT. I was given 1mg of klonopin for sleep, I took this every night for 10 months. I started having a major eye twitch in my left eye and with some research I found that benzo's can sometimes cause this. Needless to say, I didn't know anything about benzos or much about antidepressants for that matter. I went to my family practice GP and he told me to take half of the benzo and then every other day, 3rd day and so on. Oh my goodness, I have NEVER felt so bad in my life!!!!!! I was shaking uncontrollably, my brain actually hurt, I had major anxiety, I laid in bed just shaking, sweating and trying not to go crazy! Anyway, I ended up in detox. I felt so out of place, I was in there with people who were withdawing from heroin, opioids, meth etc. The people there thought I was lying, they didnt believe that such a small amount of klonopin could give me such a reaction. Anyway, I ended up being put on gabapentin to help with the withdrawl. I could barely eat for about 3 weeks which is about how long it take for this to get out of your system. I still felt anxiety and depression, my anxiety did not allow me to leave the house. I got into see a psychiatrist, he recommended I try prozac which gave me even more anxiety, he never told me that it could cause more anxiety at first, in fact he didn't tell me anything about the drug at all... I ended up going from dr to dr that just kept putting me on different things that weren't working. I was just losing hope, I was getting worse and worse, I began to have acid reflux and ended up developing an extremely painful ulcer that made my body burn from top to bottom. this all happened within a 4 month period, i ended up losing 20lbs and looked like a skeleton. I finally decided to go to a treatment center for help. They tried a few different meds and finally pristiq seemed to work ok. They were the ones that found a great med for my gastro issues which my GP here never did. I left with pristiq and an array of night meds to help me sleep. I got home, and by the end of the week I was having major anxiety! My mom and a lady from church kept telling me it was my hormones but I thought I was fine being that I was on bio HRT. I finally decided to take there advice and went to my gyno, he put me on a strong synthetic hormone and my world changed from the first pill. Literally my anxiety and depression started fading away. Makes me so mad that no drs for 4 months could not figure this out!!! Menopause was the culprit of this whole situation. I forgot to mention, one of the meds that was given to me, Lamictal, ended up sending me to the ER with tingling in my face, hands and feet, feeling of bugs biting and crawling on me. They didn't even no what it was at the hospital, they sent me home with benadryl, REALLY!! Come to find out it was neuropathy. I have lost so much confidence in in drs., it's sad.. Anyway, I found a psychiatrist who seems knowledgeable and somewhat more willing to listen. I ended up going on Cymbata to get off gabapentin for nerve pain. I've been on it for 8 months, it was so activating that I could not get off my gaba due to excess activation. I didn't want to keep switching so i decided to stay on the med. I tried to get off about 3 months ago with the gaba, dumb idea, I should know better. i got down to 15 mg and decided to go back up to 20 which has been awful. So, I decided to try again. I went from 20mg to 17.5 and now I'm on 15mg., my dr wrote a script to a compound pharmacy for the lower doses. I tried to tell her I wanted to try again but this time she just wants me to just quit from the 20mg. go figure!! I was thinking possibly about going back to pristiq but I just really want to get off meds, I was fine until menopause hit. I have 2 weeks of 15mg left and 30 days of 10mg. My question is, is 2 weeks on 15mg enough? Also, how long would I be on 10mg and how do you count beads from 10mg capsules... I'm so scared of having a benzo typre withdrawl although I'm convinced my complete lack of hormones played in that somehow, either way, I never want to experience that again.... Sorry for the novel, I tried to make as short as possible.. Thanks you for this site. This has been an answer to prayer...
God Bless...