Hello its me again FH
Been up since 5 this morning with uncontrollable crying on and off and extreme fear panic anxiety. Hubby went to work at 5.30 i managed to put on a brave face as i dont like him worrying. Called mum and a friend who understands depression and anxiety talked for 2 hours, calmed enough to call dr. my dr is off until tues but because i was in a state the receptionist said she would ask for a lady dr to call. i didnt necessarily want to speak to another dr in fear of another one not understanding about cymbalta withdrawal but was at the stage of thinking shall i go to the hospital. So awaiting call, also text my old psychologist to see if i can get an emergency appointment.
Decided to go to bed even if cant sleep i feel safe there. Dozed a bit and made myself a cupa of tea and washed up, thinking just do that then you can rest. i feel tired as in brain tired but feel as though cant settle. so had a bath which calmed me enough and started reading back my journal and posts on here again. During the weaning off i was getting glimpses of normal and meeting selective friends who understand and thinking yes im getting there.
While reading posts again it seems that , this can happen, then it gets worse again when you stop? so if on the previous answer you said perhaps zoltoft is not for me would this just be normal to feel like this. im sorry if im not explaining myself very well, but ive calmed down now, and remembering what other posts say with dont try to fight the anxiety ride with it or its worse and just be kind to yourself so am just trying to watch crap tv. Also ive been taking omega 3 1360mg with 950mg active epa/dha in there, is that enough as it was the highest strength i could get in the health store at the time, but rereading posts not sure this is the right strength.
Im hoping just to try to relax do some relaxation techniques from my mindfulness tape, and not to think this is what my life will always be like. ive never realised how bad anxiety can be as ive manly suffered depression and ocd thinking. The zoltoft seems to have worked on the ocd , other than mind spinning about withdrawal
Hope love and prayers for all going through this nightmare x