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[Raven72]

that things

 

Yes, he is back at work. We are hoping and praying for the best.

 

Have a great weekend all.

[gail]

Things forgotten

Brain dead this morning, I wish!

[fishinghat]

forgotten past

 

Hello all!!

[TryinginFL]

Past time

Hi all!

Have not totally disappeared but almost

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Have been trying to keep up with posts.
I am not doing well myself, but will hopefully have a new laptop by next week sometime

Love hugs and prayers to All

[FiveNotions]

time out

 

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Hello forum friends ! I'm back after taking a "time-out" to focus on just living life without crapalta ... and to get myself off wellbutrin ... it took me 4 1/2 months to dose down from 300 XL, which I'd been on for almost 20 years... my last day was 2/28 ... I also weaned myself off of the clonidine (had been taking .3 mg 2 x day) ... I am now completely off anti-depressants for the first time since 1997 !!! 

 

It was hard, but compared to the hell of 2014 getting off crapalta, not even worth mentioning.

 

So far, no signs of depression, just low levels of anxiety ("worms in the stomach" sensation) that are manageable. (I should write a longer post elsewhere here I guess.)

[gail]

Out there

Ah! How I missed seeing this blue eyed cat. Lovely to hear from you FN.

Seems as though Liz and I are rowing in the same boat here. How sweet it is...

[fishinghat]

there (is) hope

 

Fantastic FN!! I am so happy for you. Great to hear from you.

[FiveNotions]

hope always

 

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Sooo much for me to catch up on here, and it's so comforting to read all the posts ... during my time away I realized that I can't talk about what I went through, am still going through, with anyone else in my life. .. What these drugs do to us, the hell that we suffer getting off of them, and then learning to live without them ...heck, how we ended up on them in the first place ...  it puts us in a "class" unto ourselves ... I need to be here, to reassure myself that I'm not alone ... it restores my hope ... strengthens my faith ... and puts a smile on my face ... 

[Raven72]

always supportive

 

Hello FN - I don't think we've officially met, I'm Raven *shakes FN's hand*

 

You are so right in the fact that we can't talk about the hell these horrible drugs especially Sinbalta have put us through. My husband has ever so supportive but it's not physically happening to him. He says it's happening to him too and in some respects he is right, because when I let what this horrible sinful drugs has done to my brain takeover then my actions cause him turmoil. I had a relapse this weekend and it was not good - I looked in the mirror and got a full image view of myself this weekend.  All the weight I have gained and all the pain I go through and the look on my face. I looked like the saddest, most depressed person in the world. The thing is I was actually happy until I saw myself int he mirror and saw why everyone is always asking me if I'm okay.

[FiveNotions]

supportive friends

 

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Hi Raven !

 

oy, mirrors ... I don't like them at all ! 

 

I sure understand about the weight gain ... gack ... I put on 30-35 lbs during my crapalta years ... but have hope (there's that word again!) ... I was amazed to see it all disappear after I'd been off the stuff ... took about 6-8 months ... dropped 3 pant sizes ... of course, I've "snacked" my way back up about 10 lbs since then (2014) ... but at least now I'm wearing chocolate and chips on my hips, not Eli Lilly  

[Raven72]

friends missed (R.I.P ReeRee )

 

Ugh, I hate mirrors. I put on about 80lbs or close to it since being on this mess. Makes me not want to exercise like I used to like doing. Before going on this crap I had lost 75lbs and was on my way to losing more. My goal was 100lbs lost and I was almost 25lbs away from that then Sinbalta happened because I wouldn't listen to my husband when he tried to tell me what it would do to me. I am watching my portions and eating better now but it's still hard to exercise.

[fishinghat]

missed opportunity

I have fallen in love with my mirror again now that I lost 55 lbs. Yea.

[Raven72]

opportunity knocks

 

My mirror and I have recently went our separate ways. I told her that it wasn't personal and that it was me not her. I did tell her that all I needed was sometime to myself and maybe I we could see each other occasionally.

[FiveNotions]

knocks door

 

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hahahaha ... ah, the humor and laughter ... that's one of the many gifts of this place ... where we can tell about the lousy stuff we face alone and it turns into shared / mutual laughter ... 

[Raven72]

door opened

 

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Yes, I love the humor of this place.  It's nice to know I'm not the only person going through this hell and I am thankful my husband found you guys for me to talk to.

[Carleeta]

opened easily.

 

Wow everyone's talking about weight gain,or loss. lol.  Your speaking to an Italian here and there are no scales in their houses...lol lol lol.  Only kidding, I live by my scale, always did and always will. It just keeps me on my toes here, literally! Haven't been able to work out at curves in about a year due to hurting my shoulders (arthritic problems) and causing more pain. Steriods have put more weight on me, therefore, i'm on a strict diet.. sticking to it to a tee.  Making sure I eat 6 times a day. I like the protein shakes with probiotics in them.  

 

Gail, glad you like this mind game. It keeps you alert now and focused on something other than our symptoms.

 

FN,  I was just asking about you a few weeks ago.   Yipeeee, you are back and didn't forget us.  

 

Raven,glad to hear hubby is doing well.

Liz, excited to hear your are getting a new computer....

Fisginghat.... I love, that you love, your mirror......

[fishinghat]

easily mistaken

 

Cheerful Carleeta (sounds Mexican to me)  lol

 

What a wonderful infection of joy you are.

 

Fisginghat here!!  ??  Is that Italian?

[Raven72]

mistaken identity

 

Hello, everyone. Yes, the hubby is doing much better. The CT/Scan was normal and he is doing much better.

[fishinghat]

Identity assured

 

Fantastic Raven!!  Great news!!

[Raven72]

assured reality

 

*does happy dance* okay now i'm tired

[FiveNotions]

reality bites

 

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not sure where I came up with that phrase ... but it sure bit me early this morning ... bldg maintenance woke me up out of the blue, as they'd arrived to install new appliances and cabinets in my apt. kitchen ... without any warning ... bldg management "forgot" to give me the promised advance warning so I could clear / empty everything out ... I must have looked particularly heinous, as they took one look at me and rapidly agreed to come back tomorrow  

[Raven72]

bites hard

 

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LOL! I know if someone woke me up like that and I got straight out of bed and went to the door, they would never want to come back

 

It bit me hard this morning as I was awakened by my 8 year son shortly before 6am stating he had thrown up a little. He had no fever it looked as though it was due to sinus drainage. Jump in the shower really quick, get out and get dressed and marinate the fish for dinner tonight, then get the kids up. He throws up one more time but says he feels okay after that but wants to take it easy today. Drop them at in laws and off to work.

 

So, how is everyone else doing?

[TryinginFL]

hard luck

greetings, everyone!

New laptop is here but not set up yet... Still fighting with this tablet


Oy! FN, what an embrassing and horrible situation! But how wonderful to have a new kitchen!

Raven, happy that hubby's test results turned out well-FH,sounds that things are getting better and Carleeta, I so envy your positives!

Gail, how are you feeling?


Car broke down again and so have I

[FiveNotions]

luck (of the) draw

 

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yeah, I broke the game rules but that's all I got ...

 

So glad you'v got the new 'puter TFL .. the set up part's a b*tch, but once done, smooth sailing !

 

I'm on a brief break from work (I work from home for those of you who don't know) ... I'm cataloging math resources for middle school ... I can hear my mother in Heaven laughing at me ... I'm a word person ... numbers mean nothing to me, yet here I am, earning my living with math stuff ... must say, I'd do a hell of a lot better on all those SATs and aptitude tests now than I did "back in the day" ...

 

ok, back to "Einstein world" for me ...     

[Carleeta]

draw blood

 

Yup,  I would come up with that one.  Maybe the lab in me... lol lol lol. So far my bloods tests came back good in June.

 

Raven, wonderful news with the negative cat scan.  Liz, so sorry to hear about your car.  First the computer, then the car. Things will get better. I love my positives.

 

Fishinghat, to me you are Italian...lol lol lol.  One of my best friends, who is Italian, loves to fish when he goes to Sardinia.  I love to put smiles on peoples faces; it makes me so happy.

 

FN,   You are so lucky to be getting new cabinets and appliances. It's a pain to clear them all out, although once they are in and you look at them, you'll feel like a brand new person.  

 

Gail, Hoping you see better days soon.

[Raven72]

blood boiling

 

absolutely pissed off (sorry)

[fishinghat]

boiling frog

 

An interesting antidote. You should read about it.

[Raven72]

frog legs

 

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blech

[TryinginFL]

legs long

 

 

I agree to the frog thing...

 

Now on new laptop but still learning - I can read emails and post, so I guess that's a good thing!

[fishinghat]

long ways

 

It not about eating frogs ladies. It is a parable about adapting to life. The story is called 'boiling frog'. The story (shortened version) goes if you put a frog in hot water he will jump out BUT if you put him in cold water he will stay even if the water is slowly heated to the point where he dies. This illustrates that we adapt to adversity even to the point of suffering.

 

By the way scientists have shown that this is not true. Once the water gets warm the frog will jump out.