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[gail]

Well, I can say I've visited hell today, I thought the last 2 days were awful, but I had not seen anything yet!

 

And again, I need reassurance. I felt so bad with the crying, nausea, tension all over, stiff neck and back and shoulders, alleluiah! I  cannot  even begin to describe the way I felt inside, there are no words for it. I cleaned the house like a madwoman, just to keep busy. All plans I had made, small ones, cute ones never occured. That's 3 days going on, the worst today. Thank God that I live alone. I could not bare to be around someone.

 

Just took 1and a half ativan, to try to calm myself, almost shaking.

 

I need your words of wisdom , please,  I feel desperate. I know this is a normal phase but I need confirmation once again,Thank you

 

 

[fishinghat]

Gail, did you know yoou could take ativan sublingual, below the tongue. I know you have already taken yours but it is something to think about next time. Just let a half table dissolve below the tongue and it will go directly into the blood stream. IF need be you can do another 1/2 tablet 15 or 20 minutes later.

 

I wish I could say some magic words to make it go away. Try taking 3 slow deep breaths letting them out slowly. You might turn down the lights in your room. You may have pushed it to hard today and set this episode off. Is there some comfort food you like to eat?

 

It is just the withdrawal. We have all been there and it WILL get better. We are here!! God Bless you.

[FiveNotions]

Oh Gail, I'm so sorry ..... You are really in the thick of it right now.....it means that your body is ridding itself of the poison and is beginning the healing..... So, in a sense the worse you feel the better it is becoming for you.... Stick it out....don't try to fight it....wagtail said something very wise recently in another thread.....to let the awful feelings just wash over yourself.... This is temporary.....it is passing .... It isn't you, it's the poison .....

Like you, I live alone....and was glad of that during my own worst....I cldnt bear having someone else around constantly while I suffered.....and yet, I was so grateful for my dear friend's " mercy visits" to check on me, bring food and cook for me....

FH is right on with all his suggestions.... Esp. About the Ativan....you may have overdone a bit today.....slow down, lie still, eat simple easy to digest foods....lots of liquids....keep the sensory input to a minimum....

And let us know how you're doing.....frequently!

[gail]

Angels, true angels when in need appear.

 

Your words of wisdom and of compassion realy hit home. As for ativan, always sublingual.

 

The worse you feel the better it is becoming , that is something to remember when in the throws of great despair.

 

I,m a bit calmer this morning, I will hold on to your words and reread them when in crises.

 

Many thanks, you are truly angels, and I love you.

[thismoment]

Gail

Hang in there. I know massages aren't for everyone, but withdrawal can really tighten up the neck and shoulders-- so consider a neck and shoulders massage followed by a nice comforting bath.

Take care.

[gail]

 Thismoment, I was planning to buy a massaging cushion for neck and shoulders, at times my shoulders are up to my ears.

 

Thanks for confirming those tension issues. Another angel! I'm the lucky one to have all of you. May God bless you!

[sodone61]

I feel your pain and the best words of support I can think of is that you are not alone.

Yesterday was about day 22/23, something like that.  Sick.. So bad I can barely sit and type this and I'm going to the walk in clinic as soon as it opens. 

I threw up outside walking the dog and couldn't catch my breath right and I thought I would pass out.  I pray you come through this soon Gail.  I don't live alone. 

Yesterday someone knocked on my door.  I was so sick so I hoped they'd get the hint when I didn't answer and go away.  Oh no.  They kept it up until I got up and let them in.  They brought me a huge slice of chocolate cake because it was my brother's birthday and they knew I was too sick to join the party.  WHAT?! Really?

Well, that's all I can muster.  Back to bed for me.  thanks everyone.. so much.  You're all in my prayers.  Pam  

[xman]

Some ppl. can't take a hint.

[FiveNotions]

Gail, your massaging cushion idea reminded me.... I got several of the gel pea thingys that can be put in the freezer or the microwave.....rectangular shapes, an eye mask, and a large one shaped like a big horse collar....the collar shaped one I warm up in the microwave .... And then drape it on my back and around my shoulders.....feels heavenly.....

[xman]

I should have stock in the ThermaCare heat patches! lol I used way too many of them...now use on emergency basis only. Don't like the fact they are throw away--what's in there and what will it do when decomposing in the landfill?

I'm w/FiveNotions  and the gel peas. Also heat pad items now adorn my space. With horrible hot flashing from both dc of crapalta along with probable low hormone  level, I can't stand the heat for too long! LOLOL

Once upon a time I heard a really good Physical Therapist  tell a patient to "drop your shoulders" as low as you can  and be mindful of this position. Everytime you tense up, relax the shoulders DOWNward.  I am now doing this and find less shoulder related pain.

[gail]

Sodone, how is it going at this point for you?

 

Sorry if I'm late, still have difficulty figuring how those posts work.

 

Thank you for your kind words.

[fishinghat]

I have been without computer for a while Gail, just wondering how you are doing.

[gail]

Well, Fishing hat, yesterday was hell, crying, nausea, scared, Beggeg God to do something. That was yesterday.

 

Today is good, hopefull, inspirational thoughts, yes today was insightfull.

 

And manana, I dont know. Seeing a psychiatrist at 2.30 tomorrow. Thanks for asking and I have been reading on your posts concerning hydroxyzine, that will be mentionned tomorrow. Seems like you are back on the track, I am happy for you.