I got prescribed Cymbalta for back pain after suffering from spinal compression and out of place sciatic nerve. Before I started on these horrible things I had good days and bad days due to pain but on the whole still felt like me. Having had a successful operation continued to take them up until Christmas 2012.
Having been taken of the 60mg tablets at christmas to see if this was the cause of my post surgery stomach pains it resulted in a terrible christmas period resulting in a torrid time for my young family and my parents. The replacement drug was useless. I am still experiencing severe stomach problems resulting in hospital admitions, cameras, a range of different tablets and aliments and many doctors appointments later it still remains a medical mystery.
Having been placed back on Cymbalta I still felt down but just put it down to having to start again from scratch. I was given 60mg at first then upped to 90mg after about 6 weeks. I was later advised by the crisis team that 90mg wasn't in my best interests.
I had to have an emergency meeting with the crisis team in April. I wonder if this is because of the '4-6 month' shelf life this drug is meant to have. During this period i had some suicidal thoughts and was finding it really difficult to cope with the situation.
The problem has got worse. Just over 5 days ago, after a month or so of feeling crap taking them i decided to bite the bullet and stop all together. Unfortunately last night i had a meltdown. I don't like the feeling of uselessness and being unable to help myself. This god forsaken drug that was meant to help me has ruined me, nearly cost me everything and left me in a mess i cant get out of. This included suicidal thoughts including stopping my diabetes medication and not wanting to be on my own. I also couldn't control scratching myself and head butting inanimate objects. I just want it to stop so i can go back to enjoying my life like i did before my operation. I just want to be me again.