Hey John,
Just catching up here - Hat has been doing a bang up job of keeping you going... as he always does.
I did fear that your sudden stoppage would catch you up, but you at least know what it is. After the withdrawals - plural! - it comes as no shock to me that this is what you are now unfortunately going through. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. One has to be really strong to fight through these days, BUT your body IS on the mend and you WILL see it through to the other side. It is just going to take some time.
The studies of brain plasticity says it all. It is not possible for you to be in this permanent anxious, low, running naked in the street place! You did what you felt was right and regardless, we are here for you and to help in every way possible.
When I came off Dulox, I remember what I went through. I specifically remember being in such a state of anxiety that I couldn't get the meds for the wife - who amongst other things, is agoraphobic, so relies on me for such things. She went out to the pharmacy sweating buckets and her prescription wasn't ready and she started sweeping her arms across the shelves smashing everything to the floor. The fuzz were called and I had to go and sort it out despite being in a state of bearly being able to walk - and living on the fourth floor of my apartment block with no elevator was not good.
Things get better John. It can't rain all the time. Hang in there and you will, bit by bit, start to see the positives coming through. I can assure you of that.
Wishing you and yours the very best for Christmas and the New Year. I will be here regardless, so if you need help - any time - just post or message and I will be there...
Take care dear friend.
p.s. We have a tradition here on the South-East coast of running naked into the sea on Boxing Day. Can't say that I am too keen on participating myself!! Regardless of the cold weather reducing my manhood to the size of an acorn, it is just not healthy!!! At least you have socks