Chill man... it is not always THAT long.
LV has got herself in a very upsetting position with her doctors and I really feel for her. There is never a way of knowing how long one's journey will take.
Life can be a bitch - I don't know your spiritual bent on things - and I am not asking for it. But I am a spiritualist and believe that we are here to cover aspects of our existence that cannot be covered on the Other Side. I have been tested so many ways. I have been faced with so many things in my time here. Almost taken my life twice - if you don't mind me saying. But it was the people that I met RIGHT HERE on the forum that kept me here. No joke. We have nothing to lose. We are just everyday guys like you who have been through all this manner of SHIT and lived to tell the tale.
I get the impression that you are Strong. You have the ability to get yourself through this, and I know that you WILL.
Just be here, be with us. You will come out the other side - trust me...
Take it easy, man
IUN